I Am Not Sorry
March 31st, 2018
I am not sorry. But I am still so sorry.
I am not sorry that I voluntarily went home with him. I am not sorry that I said no.
I am sorry for his actions. I am sorry when his roommate walked in that he did nothing.
I am not sorry it was “annoying” that I was uncomfortable and protested hanging out at his apartment, even though my “best friend” was dating his housemate and it was the “cool” place to pregame.
I am sorry that I went, sat there in his presence, and pretended like nothing was wrong every time my friends wanted to go there.
I am not sorry that I realized my “best friend” was not a friend at all. I am not sorry for standing up for those who were not believed.
I am sorry that I did not do more. I am sorry that the chances of him facing recourse for his actions in a court of law are slim. I am sorry that my knowledge of this has prevented me from trying.
I am not sorry for putting myself first. I am not sorry for attending law school, in hopes to one day change many unjust laws.
I am sorry that in the meantime, I will not become a criminal prosecutor, because of my disapproval of the United States criminal justice and prison systems.
I am not sorry for who I am. I am not sorry I have walls.
I am sorry that I have not been vocal. I am sorry I could not say “Me Too.” I am sorry I was scared.
I am not sorry for sharing my story now.
I am sorry for those who did not get a chance to share their own.